Today is The Kalends of Secondia 12AS

The Kalends what we call the 1st of each month. It is always a Eponaday, always a First Day, always a Beginning.

On this day we Invoke Secondia, Goddess of The Second Month of The Year, and ask Her to Guide us and Protect us through all of Her Thirty Days. Blessed Be…

“The concept behind making each month a Goddess in Her own right comes from something E says in Part Two “The Temple’s Metaphysics”: “By focusing individual or collective Will upon a specific Aspect of The Creatrix, meaning a specifically Named Goddess – such as Astarte, Kali, or, Bride – a Tulpa may be invoked out of The Creatrix, a part of Her that can be understood and related to, and therefor directed.”

The idea here being to Invoke each Monthly Goddess at the beginning of of Her Thirty Days, asking for Her Guidance and Protection during Her Time. To facilitate this, we are reintroducing another Roman convention, The Kalend, Latin for ‘announcing’ or ‘calling’ and the basis for the word Calendar, as the first day of each month. Upon the arrival of The Kalend we are reminded to make the above Invocation.

These are new Goddesses and as yet Un-Manifested. Therefore, now as I write these words upon this page, I Invoke them and call then into Being.

By reading their Names, you my Sisters, also Invoke them. And as Common Usage becomes Established Tradition, the Nature and Traits of each Goddess shall make themselves apparent and become fully Manifest. Through this process, we shall Serve them and they shall Serve us, which is ever the proper relationship between Humans and their Deities.”

Addendum D [Calendar for A New Matriarchy]

Her Prophet Worries About His Mental Health

~No, it’s not that I’m crazy. Not only did that horse leave the barn a long time ago, but even all the glue made from said beast has been fully affixed to whatever.

What I’m worried about is my Depression. I fear it is deeper than I want to admit. I have not been able to re-start on The Explanation. [I'm not even hyperlinking it at this point] And that leaves me without Purpose. Such does not make me suicidal, it merely puts me in a place where I am simply surviving day by day, largely indifferent to anything else. For me, that is a living death…and that is very depressing.

I have a fairly clear idea of the things that are is blocking me..and there is nothing I can do about most of them right now. All I can do is Survive….

Her Prophet Reflects Upon The Nature Of A True Man

..I wrote this last June 11th when Arness died..I repost it as a counter-point to my regular militancy regarding True Men..

~Hearing about the death of James Arness hit me surprisingly hard. I’ve been crying a bit on and off every since I made the post. I suppose it’s more than just another piece of my youth passing. Arness was both personally and professionally a True Male in the best sense of the phrase; solid, hard working, humble yet strong. He was probably the best male role model this culture ever provided me and I expect many of my generational brothers would say the same.

You see I really don’t hate men per se. We have many fine traits. We are simply creatures of a certain nature and our time is up. Keep in mind that Arness was of Norwegian descent and twelve hundred years ago those guys were busy being a somewhat different type of True Male; The Viking.

For me at least, with Arness’ death a chapter in our history symbolically closes for good; the mythos of The American Frontier. The actuality of it closed long before I was even born, but it remained alive in our hearts and minds. Some still cling to it, Tea Party members being the worst contemporary example.

The Rugged Individualist is at the center of that mythos, the quiet, but determined hero [almost always male] who ‘carved this Great Land out of the savage wilderness’. Of course, he was in fact usually a drunk and/or a compulsive gambler, unable to stay in any one place for long and all too often a violent sociopath, but those are the kind of men required to ‘carve up a savage wilderness’, as will as its previous occupants.

Matt Dillon represents a ‘bridge character’, a True Male who can be largely authentic within a more or less stable social order. In that Gunsmoke is also really a ‘proto-copshow’. The general setting is rural, but Dillon is based ‘in town’ and is actually a Federal Law Enforcement Officer.

[Think of how profoundly retro Justified is in that regard. Raylan Givens is a serious throwback. That is probably why Chase failed; the cultural model could not except a female in that role, especially with an actress who really made it work.]

Her Prophet Etc

~I actually started writing this two days ago. I wrote two sentences; I am confronted by a conundrum. [“No, it's only a Challenge,” says a perky lil voice inside...I fucking hate perky lil voices], which was supposed to be the opening, and Like every other stoopeed hoomon I am plagued and distracted by mundane issues, a few notes…and then I stopped dead. The file has just sat on my desktop until now [9:55am 17th Prim/Jan 12th].

As so often happens, I was taking a shit when I started thinking about this. Well, the excretory event was done and I was just sitting there in the afterglow. I didn’t really have a conversation with E so much as re-play one that I’ve had with Her before and that She runs at me pretty much whenever I start whining to Her about The Temple, The Sisterhood and ‘how tough it all is to do this’ and ‘no one is helping me’ and blah blah blah.

I always get annoyed with myself even as I’m bitching and moaning about it. Yeah, this IS a rough fucking gig. That’s why I really didn’t want it in the first place. And why I get pissed off that you fucking bitches aren’t stepping up to take This Thing of Yours off my hands. And yes, I know that’s unfair and self pitying and in that moment I tend not to care. I’m still an Addict and I Fucking Want It Now!

*takes deep breath*

Okay, the ‘re-play’. Basically it’s that writing The Explanation is in fact a Massive Majickal Working and in order for it to truly Manifest, I have to fucking finish it! That is the Nature of Majickal Workings; one needs to complete them in order to then Release them into The Universe and then proceed to the Mundane Actions necessary to fully Manifest them.

In some ways remember that is a relief. “Gee, all I have to do is finish it.” In other ways, it is very frustrating. [see previous quote] I’d love to bloody well finish it. And I am ”Like every other stoopeed hoomon…plagued and distracted by mundane issues.”

I am very distracted. By physical pain. By fear of financial insecurity. By self doubt. By depression and PTSD. And so on. [Yes, I also know it is certain that some have engaged in Majickal Working in order to prevent us from creating The Sisterhood, another reason we need the Presence of the Sisters who wish to see it born]

I’ve been looking for the CD for the voice activated program so I can download it onto this computer, but so far no joy. One more frustration.

I would like to start working on the thing again and yet I cannot seem to focus on it. I’ve gotten no traction in rebooting myself.

The best I seem able to do so far is to whine about all this here in my LJ which I then repost to my various blogging platforms after which I either take a nap because I’m exhausted or watch some Crime Drama because my mind is wrung out….and The Sisterhood then recedes that much further into the future.

And I’m afraid that IS ‘what is so’ right now…

Her Prophet [Doesn't] Write

~There have been Money Issues, Housing Issues, Internet Issues and Holiday Issues [with the attendant family system dreams] all of which have impacted my State of Mind and my Health with their cumulative Stress. As best as I can tell none these Issues are of Crisis proportions, but together they’ve taken their toll.

I re-started work on a short Cyber Witch story three/four days back and it moved quickly. But the editing has totally bogged down and now I’m feeling disheartened regarding finishing The Explanation. My mind simply will not latch onto the thing again. Right now I’m just marking time and doing my best not to slip into a Black Dog.

I’m really not happy at all….

Two Thousand and Twelve Anno Domini

~Anno Domini is Latin for ‘The Year of The Lord’. Some times that is said as ‘Our Lord’, but it functionally translates into English as ‘The Lord’, its possessive nature being only implied in the Latin. If one addressed someone as Dominus, ‘master’ or ‘owner’, one implicitly granted them authority over ones self. [Domina is the female case] Anno is also a Masculine word in Latin.

All this was whipped up by some wee monk in the Sixth Century to rectify the various calendric hodgepodges of the day. In retrospect, I’d say he did rather well.

Of course I bring all this up in order to point out the underlying possessiveness of this Patriarchal naming convention. By using Anno Domini, one assumes a ‘slave attitude’. God owns you.

With the Matriarchal Calender’s use of Anna Sororitas this is shifted even as a historical continuity is maintained. ‘Anna’ is obviously a Feminized case of ‘Year’, which I do not believe actually exists in Latin to date. ‘Sororitas’ means ‘Of The Sisters’ or ‘Belonging to The Sisters’. Note that is a collective ownership, one that implicitly includes all of its members.

And though The Sisterhood worships The Goddess in all of Her Aspects, She too is a Sister and part of this, not an owner from above. There is Hierarchy and Seniority, but not ownership, at least not among Sisters. All are part of the Greater Whole, which each Sister Serves and is Served by.

And so it is…

As True Men are ultimately slated for extinction, their status will get determined on a case by case basis until they’re all gone. The various types of Y-Chrome Servitors who replace them will uniformly be treated humanely, much as we presently treat beloved pets and valued service animals.

Her Prophet Reflects

~Another quiet night here all by myself. Only Squirt is up and she still mostly runs away from me, silly creature.

I’ve spent most of the past month or so watching Crime Drama and playing in the Anglo-American Imperium. But the Matriarchal New Year has begun and the Gregorian soon shall as well. Time to start up with The Explanation once again. I shall finish the First Version by this coming summer or fucking die!

Lots of thoughts on so many other subjects, though all tie into the Grand Issue, the birth of The Amazon Republic and the End of Men. Therefore I shall remain quiet for a little while longer and cogitate upon the coming days….

Today is The Kalends of Primaria 12AS

The Kalends what we call the 1st of each month. It is always a Eponaday, always a First Day, always a Beginning.

The Kalends of Primaria is different from the other Kalends. It is the First of the First of the First, first day of the first week of the first month of the new year. Upon The Kalends of Primaria we formally lay out the plans and goals of the coming year and dedicate ourselves to their completion in The Name of The Goddess in all of Her Aspects.

On this day we Invoke Primaria, Goddess of The First Month of The Year, and ask Her to Guide us and Protect us through all of Her Thirty Days. Blessed Be…

“The concept behind making each month a Goddess in Her own right comes from something E says in Part Two “The Temple’s Metaphysics”: “By focusing individual or collective Will upon a specific Aspect of The Creatrix, meaning a specifically Named Goddess – such as Astarte, Kali, or, Bride – a Tulpa may be invoked out of The Creatrix, a part of Her that can be understood and related to, and therefor directed.”

The idea here being to Invoke each Monthly Goddess at the beginning of of Her Thirty Days, asking for Her Guidance and Protection during Her Time. To facilitate this, we are reintroducing another Roman convention, The Kalend, Latin for ‘announcing’ or ‘calling’ and the basis for the word Calendar, as the first day of each month. Upon the arrival of The Kalend we are reminded to make the above Invocation.

These are new Goddesses and as yet Un-Manifested. Therefore, now as I write these words upon this page, I Invoke them and call then into Being.

By reading their Names, you my Sisters, also Invoke them. And as Common Usage becomes Established Tradition, the Nature and Traits of each Goddess shall make themselves apparent and become fully Manifest. Through this process, we shall Serve them and they shall Serve us, which is ever the proper relationship between Humans and their Deities.”

Addendum D [Calendar for A New Matriarchy]

12 Anna Sororitas, The Twelfth Year of The Sisterhood

“Those few days in mid October of 2001 when E first dictated The Pentavalent to me, the Precepts that are shaping and guiding The Temple into becoming The New Matriarchy, that Global Amazon Republic I’m so fond of promoting. We shall date the Anna Sororitas [Year of Sisterhood] beginning from that time when the actual Path itself was first Revealed. AD 2001=1 AS.

Addendum D [Calendar for A New Matriarchy]

Marissa Gaeta And Citlalic Snell, U.S. Naval Petty Officers

~Of course the first Official Gay Military Kiss is between two very cute lesbians. Somebody in PR was paying attention. lol

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